Kinda late as we are already almost 1 month pass the new year, but I feel like writing ^^
Ah! the great "New year New me" crap that we humans love to set new goals to achieve within the year or else we are stuck feeling like a downer who can't accomplish anything in their lives. And you know what? I was one of them! Each year since 2009 I kept setting new year resolutions to lose weight, try something new, go on an adventure, venture out of my comfort bubble, be this and be that etc. It was exciting at the time because you're all motivated for the new "chance" of starting over, aligning it all with the new year making it sound so nice and electrifying for about like the first 2 weeks (longest I tend to survive LOL) and then reality kicks in, and you realize "Oh this is gonna take time and effort" something I clearly lack in! Then the old ugly habits kick it and the excuses begin "I'll start tomorrow" or "Monday isn't really a good day to start, I'll wait for Sunday" and the list goes on. FYI! I tend to be explosive if I don't get what I want XD so I'm sorry to all my family members that had to go through me on a day with no chocolate in my system... I was a feisty hulk! So yeah a new year comes, new goals are set, I fail them usually within the first month, then I hate myself and go back to the same habits that put me in this ugly loop in the first place. I know! so why don't you just stop?! well... I have an addictive/ stubborn/ control freak personality and once i'm comfortable in my BIG bubble I don't want nothing to disturb or pop it, even if it means bettering myself. Thus I understand that its myself that's keeping me back from accomplishing my goals, and I accept that. I am slowly learning more about myself and how I work, I don't go well with change rather it be good or bad, I love to have things within my control and in a routinize way, which i'm starting to realize SUCKS BIG TIME! I am bored of being in the same loop each year. So why not approach in a new, more positive way :) This time i'm taking things slow, if I screw up its okay its just a minor set back and I will be back on my feet again! that's the whole part I tend to forget.... that mistakes will happen and I will have bad days where I'm back to the old unhealthy way of living, BUT I am going to try my best to keep moving forward and getting back on track, accept the past and keep focusing on the present me. To love myself more and to reevaluate how I see things, be more forgiven and carefree, and cherish the NOW instead of living in the past or worrying about the future. Lets make it a good year <3
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January 2018
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